Today as part of my Sunday ritual, I was reading Post Secret and became saddened when I found out the Post Secret app had been closed.  Anyone who knows me will know that I am not one for fancy phones or fancy technology... I mean I yelled at google because it wasn't giving me what I wanted.  I do not need a smart phone.  #letsbereal


However, it saddened me that the app had to be closed due to the actions of the community.  Something meant to cause no harm and only good was destroyed by 1%.  I was disappointed in the people of our community.  

Disappointment can be a powerful emotion sometimes.

  

Until another day then.

"There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love."

-Martin Luther King Jr. 

O Chem

I would say that 90% of the time I like my Organic Chemistry course.  Not in a sarcastic "Oh, yeah this class is great" way but in a I could see myself doing research in this field way.  I love it and find it utterly fascinating 

Right now... is not one of those times.  This is the 10% time.  I went to bed at 2am and have been up since 6:30am all in the hopes to find one article.  One. As in single, by itself, not hard to find, but so hard to find.

Maybe in an hour or so I'll like O Chem again but for now I really hate this class.  That is all I have to say because it is a little after 7am and I have yet to find one article.

  

Nerves

A big part of who I am and where I am going comes from my sorority.  It sounds clique and sorority life lame but it is completely true.  I am a member of Alpha Delta Pi and sometimes I feel as if I bleed blue and white.

Today I am interviewing to be the President of my Chapter and I am incredibly nervous and excited.  After this interview in t-minus 2 hours I will no longer have any control over this situation.  It is in the Chapter's hands and I'm ready to let go.  

Wish me luck because today is the day I've been waiting for for a long time.  

Bucket List

Go to the top of Pikes Peak: Check that off the list.

For Fall Break 2011, Lauren, Trish, and I went to Colorado Springs, Colorado.  It was fantastic and I am so grateful that I was able to have that opportunity.

proof with a lil' bit of our faves diamonds

Ready

"A life without adventure is likely to be unsatisfying, but a life in which adventure is allowed to take whatever form it will is sure to be short..."  Bertrand Russell

Maybe it's the changing of seasons.  Maybe it's because Fall Break is two weeks away.  Or maybe it's because of the way the warm sunshine is mixing with the cool breeze.

No matter the reason, I know that I'm ready for a change.  This itch has been growing for some time and it is almost to the point where I can't help but scratch it.

I'm ready.

I am ready for an adventure.  Any adventure, just please release me from this routine.

                                                        I'm ready.     

Yet... I'm not really.  There is much more needed preparation for such an awfully big adventure.  So until then I will quietly submit to the readings of my Organic Chemistry class.

Soon though my adventure will come because this itch will not stay unscratched forever.

A Tale…

Once upon a time, there was a little girl who loved chemistry with all of her might.  She loved the p orbitals, the pi bonds, the RICE tables, and mostly the math.  She wanted to be a chemist with all of her heart. 

That little girl changed into a larger little girl who wanted to be a doctor.  Nay, a psychiatrist who works with high risk teens.  That little girl is now a young woman and has no idea.  She fears her grades will not get her into medical school and she will fail.  She is also afraid she will succeed  and then cry everyday after work because she knows exactly how it feels.

She fears but she does not tell.

Now all that young woman wants to do is socialize because she can’t fail there.  How could she? 

Alas she will keep going to class and getting a fairly good grade but just not quite enough.  Almost first, always second. 

Sometimes it’s overwhelming to see the way my life is being pulled in so many different directions by the people in my life.

Guess we will just have to wait and see.

Love

Keep believing in love because it is a great and powerful emotion that no one should lose sight of.

Love is many things, but logical is not one of them.